and here it is..

Alright, since I get very bored on the computer now-a-days, i should start back up posting on this as much as i can or remember to. Hm, lets start with life.. im trying to accomplish as much as I can. I also have learnt to never trust anyone unless they give you a reason to, to never let people in. You know what sucks? I work my ass off trying to please everyone, trying to mke everyone happy, trying to cheer everyone up, trying to be the best i can, Trying not to hurt anyone, well guess what? im done being mr. nice. All i ever do is get hurt, crushed, torn apart.



Hm, Everything youve said to me the past 3 years, was it a lie? were you ever in love with me? did you ever cheat on me? did you ever have feelings for me? did you ever enjoy talking to me? really? ;l did you ever keep any promises? i can go on on on and on about you, right now. Have you been building it all up for the past three years so you can devaste me, in the end? if you have, good job. Ive never ever ever ever been hurt this bad in my entire life. I was stabbed in the heart by you, several times. im done wtih you.

Anyway, and then theres this girl mia. We've had our ups and downs, we've had our arguments and disagreements, but she always comes to mind, she always brings a smile to my face.. When im down, shes there to help me. When i need her shes there to try and help, the best she can.. i dont understand why people hate seeing us together? it doesnt make sense.. but again, who cares. I sure dont. Mia, i love you. <3


Thats it for now, ill post some time soon. :)

Uggggh.

Erg, i dont know where to start. Lets just start out as, life has me exhausted, confused, in a mess. Why cant family just stay out of the relationships i pick. Its not affecting them, and i cant handle it anymore. Everything i do isnt enough for anyone, at all. Everyone knows shes my world. :/ they should also know they cant get between us. ugh. All i can do is think of it, so how the fuck is it a crime im in love? l; What did i do to deserve all of this? explain. im sooo close to giving up. anyway, i think im done ranting, done crying everyday.

i love you. dont forget it.

boom boom boom..

okay so like, i havent posted in a while, cause i was in the hospital, wasnt in the mood too..worn out, but now im feeling better, a little. anywho,
happy birthday regan and hannah ^^.

last night, was amazing.. thanks to her. one of the thousands of wishes ive made. :]
not letting go, this time.

i keep looking on my wall, and hot damn, taylor lautner is bringing sexi back. (L)

kso, im dont for now. <3

iloveyou.

...and it begins.

first off, id like to say Happy birthday mia!!! <3 finally 15. ;)anyway, this guy named drew, whose 24 in the army. He wasnt suppose to come over till tomm. but he wants to today... im so nervous!! i hate meeeting people the first time. but we're going to starbucks, and i guess gonna hang. we'll see how that goes. haha. :)anywho, i thought id blog, since itd prolly be the last time im on today. if any of yall has the digits, text it. :) hehe. thanks! <3 byee....iloveyou,morethanyouwilleverthink:$$$$$$<3

sooooo

not blogging long. :) i sure the fuck hope things are getting better, i love her more than ever, and i wont fuck it up.. this time. i promise.

but good night everyoone.

no more..

im done trying..
im done trying to prove to you, things..
im sorry i ever felt this way.
whatever happens, happen..
i will no longer try for something thats not going to happen.

Thanks

Gahhhhh.

im not writing much, gonna go to bed..
but i honestly dont know what to do..
at all, anymore )': i wish i did.
well anyway, night. <3